Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Can Today be over yet?

I woke up this morning in kind of a yucky mood. Tired, not ready for the day and woken up by whiney kids. That right there told me what kind of day it would be, because if they are whiney first thing in the morning, chances are they will be whiney all.day.long.
To start off my morning while drinking my coffee, Ezra pulls my camera down off the counter and breaks the lens. Hello $200 dollars I do not have. Thats about what it will take to replace it, Lovely.
The plan for today was just to stay home, and that we must do because there is tons of snow and I have no where we MUST go when the weather is like this. Well right there was a big mistake, because I'm already in a horrible mood so staying cooped up in a house with two whiney toddlers equals no beauno.
I just feel defeated today, I can't get anything done without these two destroying it from laundry to preparing dinner. Trying to take a nap just led to me laying in bed with the thoughts of bills, money, phone calls needing to be made, and cleaning and laundry that needs to be done. Boom Boom Boom...my hearts beats faster the anxiety levels rise in my chest and I just want to scream. The tears well up and I push them back down, take a deep breath and try to go on with the day. Today sucks, I want today to be over. I wish I could just go in my room and not come back out until a newer, better, less stressful day.

1 comments:

homebody said...

You need your mama on days like this. Wish I was there to still your beating heart.

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