Sleeping

As I sit here I can here the crying and screaming of Finley. She screams and yells for me. With every "Mommy, please don't leave me. I love you mommy." My heart breaks into little pieces. This is horrible. I hate listening to her sounding so miserable. But this has to be done. She has to sleep in her own bed, Aaron and I NEED our bed back.
Finley started off sleeping in her big girl bed really well. She was very good about it, no crying or screaming. Then, we moved our bed downstaires into the living area, and made our room the playroom. We did this for a few reasons, 1. Ezra started to sleep in his crib and I didn't want him so far away 2. I didn't want to break something on my way down the staires 1 of the 5 times a night I had to nurse him, and 3. our upstaires roasts in the summer time. Since we had this great idea, so did Finle y- jump in mom and dads bed after they go back upstaires. So everynight we have had a cute little curly haired head sticking out of the top of our bed. And so there began the habit of sleeping with mom and dad, and then began the habit of just going to bed with mom every night. I know I let this happen and I know I need to correct it. But this is seriously miserable. I hate this, with a capital H. Hate!!! I have the gate up on her door right now and she has been crying for an hour now. I even bribed her with a new bike at the end of the week if she slept in her bed every night this week. Didn't work. As if this isn't already bad enough, Ezra is also crying, probably wondering why is his is so sad. Ugh, so here I sit, trying to keep myself busy and drown out the saddness.


How do you deny this sweet thing her mommy?